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Cold Feet

One of my closest friends is getting married tomorrow
another one in May
another one in November.
and an ex-classmate is also getting married in April/May.

and, I dreamed about getting married last night.

I remember some months ago I was so enthusiastic with the idea of getting married. Although I knew that our relationship was not yet ready for that stage, I was so pushy to Stefy. I had asked him when exactly we would get married. Ah well, it was all the flashy things that I longed for.

Right now, what I want is to avoid it!

I am just not brave enough to throw myself into this new status. Don't get me wrong, I am probably just like any other girls out there who like the beautiful wedding gown, like to be made up, like to be the queen of the night.

But, have you ever considered what would happen after you wave off the guests and head to your own home, starting your new chapter of life? or what would happen after the happy chappy honeymoon?

Would we then live happily ever after?

I d…

The New Beginning of the End

It's been officially a month that I am back here in Holland, back from my (too) long holiday.
And yesterday was approximately two months that I was looking for a job - and now I found it!

I started my job yesterday, unexpectedly.

Let me tell you the story how I got this job.

I started looking for a job in the month of November, when I knew for sure that my contract in my previous job would not be extended. First application letter was sent University of Tilburg, just before my holiday (and in result, I was called for the first interview, two days before my holiday).

Three days after my arrival in Holland, I attended the second interview. I was really hoping to get the job. But yeah, it didn't happen. Instead of being upset and disappointed, I have learned from that experience and sent even more application letters. I applied mostly to NGO and non commercial organisations.

After some weeks of trying to apply for normal job, and didn't get any calls; I decided to shift. I then tri…

I Hope You Dance

"One of the best lyric ever written these days." (Randy Jackson, AI Season 9).

When Mr Jackson said this, I rushed to find out the song he meant. It's I Hope You Dance by Lee Ann Womack. Indeed, the lyric is exceptional. It has a very deep meaning and also encouraging.

I hope you like it too.

I hope you never lose your sense of wonder
You get your fill to eat
But always keep that hunger
May you never take one single breath for granted
God forbid love ever leave you empty handed
I hope you still feel small
When you stand by the ocean
Whenever one door closes, I hope one more opens
Promise me you'll give faith a fighting chance

And when you get the choice to sit it out or dance
I hope you dance
I hope you dance

I hope you never fear those mountains in the distance
Never settle for the path of least resistance
Living might mean taking chances
But they're worth taking
Lovin' might be a mistake
But it's worth making
Don't let some hell bent heart
Leave you bitter
When you come c…

Kau Bukan Untukku

I was streaming to an online radio from Surabaya, while I was checking my e-mail and (again) job-hunting, and this very song was played.

Ah, this song, I said to myself.

The lyric reminded me of him: he-who-shall-not-be-named. It's been a while that we didn't bump into each other in the online world. He would sometime reply my tweet, but I tried to ignore him. I have promised myself to not get involved in anything related to him. I appeared offline to him. I deleted him from my BBM. It's about time to do something radical like this, toch?

But, I cannot help to recall his name when this song was played in the radio. So, please allow me to share this song. I dedicate this old song to him (if he ever came across this blog).

Kau Bukan Untukku
By: Andre Hehanusa

Aku tak percaya
Secepat itu semua berjalan
Hingga kuada dalam asmara

Walau kusadari
Hanya buang waktu percuma
Karena telah ada batas antara kita

Kau ada yang punya
Begitu pun diriku
Kini kita mungkin jenuh semata

Reff: kau bukan untuk…

The Good Enough Guy: What are you looking for in a man?

A couple of days ago I read this article from the Jakarta Globe that struck me to write this post. And the term “good enough guy” makes me consider what kind of guy I am dating at this moment.

‘Good enough’ does not really seem good enough. This term sounds a little bit negative, because imho, good enough is not enough. For some women, a man must possess certain degree, position, or title. For others, a man must heritage family business, including the money, position and privilege. For a few others, a man must have excellent personality that will indicate that this man will not beat his wife nor lock her in the mansion to do nothing but being a good house-wife.

So, is it acceptable to simply look for a ‘good enough’ guy? Or in my case, is it okay to date a ‘good enough’ guy? Or should I look for the best guy to replace my current one?

This article states that often we have been too picky about the trivial things and not picky enough about the important ones – which is entirely true! Some…

Pluralism: My Version

plu`ral-ism (-noun)
condition in which minority groups participate in society, yet maintain their distinctions.

Today is Chinese New Year. Being Indonesian-Born-Chinese (IBC), my family has always been taking part in this celebration. No, we were not really doing the rituals, but as a child, I always had fun hunting Hung Bao (small amount of money put in an red envelop). Another memory about Chinese New Year is it was the time when my favorite cousines came from Malang. We would play; and they would possibly have sleepover.

It was my childhood. However, I cannot recall what happened when I was slightly older. But I still remember that my mom told me to be an Indonesian. She would say "Nia, you are not Chinese. You are Indonesian." Or she would remind me that I have to respect Indonesian people in spite of their attitude toward ethnic Chinese. She said "We have a confusing story. If we would say we are Chinese, we would be kicked out from this country. Thus we would probab…

I (Never) Celebrate Valentine's Day

This coming Sunday is Valentine's day and also Chinese New Year. To be honest, I rather celebrate the latter than to get involved in so-called romantic activities withouth any purpose apart from wasting money and faking the love itself (oh gosh, I'm a downer).

How-e-ver, I have the love (the real one, I hope) and I have someone to share it with. Thus, I think it's okay to embrace that day every now and then. But still, I won't celebrate it! :P

To show that I am embracing Valentine's Day, I will share a very nice YouTube video, a cover of Kina Grannis' song, titled,... guess what,... VALENTINE! (what a coincidence :P).

I fell in love with the singers, with the song, and the lyric. So, here it is

Love, it's a special day
We should celebrate and appreciate
That you and me found something pretty neat
And I know some say this day is arbitrary

But it's a good excuse to put our love to use
Baby, I know what to do
Baby, I will love you
I'll love you, I'll love you

Wanna ask me something?

When are you gonna get married?

Who is your first love?

Have you ever eaten any disgusting food?

If you have to choose whether to live in Holland and have a good job or live in Indonesia and jobless, which one would you choose?



If you have some questions in mind that have popped up in your mind for some times, you can ask me. I would answer (hopefully) all of your questions, unless they are really dodgy or intimidating :P

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p.s. thanks for Ulm for the inspiration to log in to this geeky site.