Kau Bukan Untukku

I was streaming to an online radio from Surabaya, while I was checking my e-mail and (again) job-hunting, and this very song was played.

Ah, this song, I said to myself.

The lyric reminded me of him: he-who-shall-not-be-named. It's been a while that we didn't bump into each other in the online world. He would sometime reply my tweet, but I tried to ignore him. I have promised myself to not get involved in anything related to him. I appeared offline to him. I deleted him from my BBM. It's about time to do something radical like this, toch?

But, I cannot help to recall his name when this song was played in the radio. So, please allow me to share this song. I dedicate this old song to him (if he ever came across this blog).

Kau Bukan Untukku
By: Andre Hehanusa

Aku tak percaya
Secepat itu semua berjalan
Hingga kuada dalam asmara

Walau kusadari
Hanya buang waktu percuma
Karena telah ada batas antara kita

Kau ada yang punya
Begitu pun diriku
Kini kita mungkin jenuh semata

Reff: kau bukan untukku
Semoga kita pun memahami
Kau bukan untukku
Juga diriku
Sebelum terlanjur jauh

p.s. Dear He-who-shall-not-be-named, I am now writing a book about you. Wish me luck. And congrats with your new 'in a relationship' status with that cute singer.

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