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Final thoughts in 2010

This post should have been posted before the end of the year 2010. But let me share my final thought of 2010, and wish you a very happy new year 2011.

The year of 2010 is about facing the reality and making choices

This midnight, looking back at the past 12 months I've been through, I questioned myself what I have done, what I have learned. I pondered on what good things happened - any luck or fails?

There have been tons of things happened to me. I started this year with a visit to Indonesia, meeting my friends and family, which had given me more clarity that I would go home to Indonesia at some point, soon. It was followed with my temporary project working at the embassy of Republic Indonesia, which was a definite eye-opener about the reality I would face in the future. Then the luck happened! Actually God happened. I was given the most precious gift: I got a proper, always-been-my-dream, job.

And these are the highlights of my 2010.

But the number of things I have learned are more than that of what has happened in 2010.

I have learned that it's not what happens to you, it's what you do about it (W. Mitchell).

In the past, when problems occurred, I tended to blame other things but me: their faults, wrong people, unfairness, difficult situation, no opportunity; and even worse, I used to blame God!

I am so thankful that this year, I got to see problems differently. I could now work some ways out to solve the problems. Instead of focusing my attention to other things, I have tried to focus on myself. Not blaming myself, though, but I have tried to find a way to do something about the problem. If you want to use an academic term, what I've done is to make a problem analysis. Then, I posted an objective, of which the goal is always to get the problem solved, as possible as it could be.

Following the first lesson, I have also learned to make a hard choice. A friend of mine said that being with the 'one' is like enjoying your perfect meal. If you still crave for other meals, you have not yet found the 'one'. This year, I made my final choice to be with 'the perfect meal'. I am not saying it happened on one revelation night, like when Gabriel came to the virgin Mary. It's has become a continuous strife. But again and again, I am reminded and am back to enjoy my "perfect meal".

And it's like all the fears, worries, doubts about love and questions I've had about relationship and marriages have been wiped away. Ah, it makes me want to sing "you are the only exception."

Apart from love relationship, I also have learned a lot in the area of friendship. There are friends that love you unconditionally and love you as who you are. There are also people that seem to be your friends, but they occur to be just someone who happen to be at the same place, at the same time, and sharing some similar thoughts. For some time, it seems that you are good buddies. But when the common things did no longer exist, all the binds that for a moment seems like a true friendship, were gone.

So really value your friendship. Be kind to people, especially to your close friends, and love them unconditionally too. It reminds me of my favourite quote from the Soloist: "Sometimes friends piss each other off, right? It's part of the deal." Friends will disappoint you, for goodness' sake! But it's just part of the deal. This is where you need to learn to forgive and forget.

All of these things make me want to mention One Friend to whom I have to send my deepest gratitude and apology, too: God. Jesus, I haven't been good this year; I wasn't the nicest one this year. But I thank You for all the things I have done and learned. Thanks for giving me a smile, thanks for giving me a slap on my face once in a while. I promise, in 2011, I'll be better.

Happy new year, my dearest readers. May your 2010, which has made you who you are today, has prepared you to embrace the new 2011. Be ready to have fun!

"There are no mistakes or failures, only lessons." (Dennis Waitley)

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