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Similarity between Nia and Peyton

Masih ingat kalo Oma suka nonton One Tree Hill?

Yap, sekarang Oma uda nonton mpe season 5. Hehehe,.. kali ini lebih seru, karena selain cerita Season 5 lebih keren, Oma nonton season 5 bareng ama Ardy, Nita en Stefy. Heheheh,…. Jadi lebih rame dan meriaaah!

Some times before I left to Holland, Oma nonton OTH (one tree hill) season 4. Ada satu episode yang membuat Oma mengangguk-angguk dan kayak pengen ber-high-five ama Peyton.

In this episode called ‘Resolve’, Lucas Scott said something, about Peyton:

Sometimes pain becomes such a huge part of your life that you expect it to always be there, because you can't remember a time in your life when it wasn't. But then one day you feel something else, something that feels wrong, only because it's so unfamiliar. And in that moment you realize you're happy.

Oma mengangguk-angguk.

Ketika 6 tahun berturut-turut Oma berteman baik dengan masalah, problema dan kesedihan, nampaknya Oma sudah lupa bagaiman rasanya benar-benar bahagia.

Beberapa hari ini, hidup rasanya enak. Ada Stefy. Sementara uang masih ada, walaupun sudah menipis dibuat beli ini itu. Makan masih enak, karena suka ditraktir Ardy Nita en dimasakin Ardy Nita. Tidur masih nyaman, karena sementara uang kamar sudah tercover. Sekolah masih nyaman, secara belum mulai gitu lhoo… Roommate enak, orang Vietnam (sayang ngga bisa bikin lumpia Vietnam! :P).

Ketika semuanya ‘enak’ seperti ini, muncul suatu perasaan unfamiliar, yang setelah ditengarai, Oma suspect that I might have one of these feelings:

1. Happiness – sudah lupa rasanya gimana. Tapi mungkin karena semua enak, inilah yang namanya happiness.

2. Before conflict phase – secara sudah 6 tahun berkutat dengan masalah, Oma merasa apa yang Oma alami sekarang ada appetizer sebelum Oma mendapat masalah berikutnya

3. Dream – Oma hanya bermimpi dan suatu saat Oma akan bangun dan mendapati bahwa hidup tidak seindah ini.

Call me devastated.

Call me pathetic.

Call me negative thinker.

Call me a loser, coward, or anything.

Karena memang Oma takut. Soo.. many bad things have happened in my life, and now this new challenge?

...

...

I am ruined inside, friends.

Traumatic, scared, neglected….

Sigh….


p.s. I write similar post at my other blog

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