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Goodbye Indonesia - Welcome to Holland!

Besok, BIG DAY, huh?

Yap,.. besok Oma akan meninggalkan (lagi) kota Surabaya tercinta, dan bumi Indonesia, untuk (kembali) menuntut ilmu di negeri kincir angin, negeri mantah penjajah Indonesia. Yup,.. I am going to the Netherlands.

How is Oma today?

Ada beberapa ingredients dari perasaan Oma akhir-akhir ini:
  1. Senang (of course) karena akan ketemu Bang Tepy
  2. Streesssshh karena ndak tau apa yang akan Oma encounters di Belanda nanti. Entah akan happy, apa sedih, apa kere kayak dulu lagi,... no clue!
  3. Petrified,.. karena kali ini, benar-benar-benar walk-by-faith-kinda-step. Jadi,.. I rely on no one but God. Only God knows how I can and will survive over there. Yeah,.. Oma dapet God Scholarship. Jadi ya,... tergantung yang ngasih beasiswa mo gimana.
  4. Excited. Bakal ketemu TEMAN-TEMAN!! Keluarga di Belanda!!! dan of course 3/4 of my DieKa Friends (sorry, Golda... we are waiting for you!!)
  5. Tired,..... ya iyalaaah (masak ya iya deh,.. kan lompah galah, bukan lompat gadeh :P) secara Oma packing dan beres-beres rumah gitu lho. Mana tiap malam ada yang ngajakin keluar. Tapi seneng kok :P

So,... Yeah,.. Oma pergi besok.

Oma mo minta doa dan dukungan kalian semua. Without you all, Oma bukanlah Oma Nia :) Please pray for me, for Oma en Bang Tepy, for our future.

Oma juga mo minta maaf, buat semua orang yang pernah Oma kenal. Oma minta maaf kalau Oma sudah kasar, jahat, atau nakal sama kalian. Atau kalau Oma punya salah yang Oma ngga sadar, mohon maafkan.

Dan buat satu dua orang yang mungkin merasa pernah menyakiti Oma, I wanna say, I forgive you; yet I forget you. I sincerely forgive you, tapi maaf, Oma ndak bisa lagi mengembalikan hubungan kita seperti dulu lagi. The past has gone, sorry.

Dan buat satu dua orang yang mungkin merasa Oma masih memiliki janji, atau mungkin pernah memberikan kalian ketidakpastian. Oma minta maaf. I wanna say,... I am really-100%-clearly-purely sure with what I am doing right now. Goodbye,.. but we are friends, rite?

Thanks buat semua orang, teman, sahabat, musuh atau whoever you are,... THANKS! kalian sudah membentuk Oma seperti Oma sekarang ini.

Once again, thanks.

Goodbye

Eh,.. jadi inget lagu spice girls

Look for the rainbow in every storm
Find out for certain, love's gonna be there for you
You'll always be someone's baby

Goodbye my friend
(I know you're gone, you said you're gone, but I can still feel you here)
It's not the end
(I gotta keep it strong before the pain turns into fear)
So glad we made it
Time will never change it, no no no...

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Anonymous said…
saya tunggu kedatangannya di Belanda dengan secangkir cappucino.. :)
14:42
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